As I'm writing this I have been home for two weeks now and I've had a few people ask me how it feels to be back after so long away. I haven't known how to answer this and I wanted to write about the emotions and thoughts I've had since coming home to really figure them out and see if anyone else out there has ever felt the same.
When I was in Sydney airport getting ready to check in my bags I cried twice. When I arrived back into Birmingham airport a good 30 hours later I also cried, unfortunately not for the reasons my mum wanted me to be crying. I was so gutted to be back on UK soil and I really felt as if I wasn't ready to return home whereas my friend was so excited to be back and to see everyone. Obviously it is all down to personal opinion how you may feel in this situation but I was just couldn't bear the thought of coming back to reality.
After really thinking about my feelings towards returning it started to make more sense to me. At the moment I don't really have much of a career path ahead of me, no grand ideas on where I'm going with my life, so there isn't much for me in the UK. Obviously I have my friends and family here but that isn't what I'm referring to, I don't have anything that I'm particularly working towards in England so there's not much that I physically need to be here for.
Waking up every day in a new place and having amazing experience after amazing experience would obviously make the vast majority of people happy, but I really am at my happiest when I'm travelling. I love constantly living an adventure and being somewhere I've never been before, I get so bored being stuck in the same place! There are stressful elements of travel and it isn't always easy but it is the one thing I love doing and I can't imagine doing anything else at this stage in my life.
I don't want to sound ungrateful saying I'm miserable since I've been home and I'm not happy being here. I've loved being able to see my friends and family and catch up with whats been happening at home, and there are some home comforts I've missed! I just feel as though I'm not ready to settle yet and all I want to do is be off exploring somewhere new. I'm incredibly lucky and grateful that I am in a position where I can go on all these adventures and that I can work towards making them happen for myself.
Now that I am back I am working towards saving as much money as possible, in the shortest length of time possible, to continue travelling. It took me around 6 months to save for my last trip but I have considered other options that will allow me to travel for longer with less money. I don't want to reveal anything yet as at the moment nothing is definite, but I have some exciting plans for this year all being well. I can't wait to get back to doing what I love best and to be able to write about new, exciting adventures!